Untrusting of One’s Body: The Near Fatal Impact

When dealing with my near fatal traumatic injuries you have this new body. A body that looks like mine but doesn’t quite FEEL like mine. Simple tasks feel robotic. Indeed a stranger to myself.

As I began this courtship of my new self I was traumatized by the unexpected limitations. I lost control over my body. My body wanted to operate so differently.

In my daily activities I realized it was counterproductive to my healing journey to resist what evidently needed grace. Among my near fatal injuries I was diagnosed with severe post traumatic stress disorder who just so happened to be best friends with my other diagnosis, severe traumatic brain injury. Then just for fun they brought their friend severe anxiety to join the party of diagnosises. I knew these types of psychological changes was what the lead neurosurgeon at the Intensive Care Unit warned me of when he stated “I may be different”. That there would be “psychological changes after severe trauma”.

I developed a new love for myself in this state of exsiting. For if I wasn’t meant to live. I wouldn’t have survived. I became a “professional” patient. Every day, all day..healing. Utilizing my holistic skills, functional medicine, and innate gifts to facilitate my healing journey. Each phase of healing deepened my appreciation for life itself. I am humbled to share some of my accomplishments along my recovery. In mid 2017, I restored my ability to walk without a walker or assistance of a wheelchair/scooter. In mid 2017 I regained my ability to speak with clarity. In mid 2017, I healed my ability to utilize some of my damaged nerves in my lower legs. In late 2017, I healed my severe traumatic brain injury. My medical team told me it would take 2-3 years to heal my severe traumatic brain injury. My medical team confirmed I miraculously healed it in under a year of my near fatal accident. As of early 2020, I healed my severe anxiety and severe post traumatic stress disorder. My medical team did not predict these psychological effects would heal. Today there are a 3 injuries I am still working on. My body will never be as it once was. It is better than ever before. There is a power within you to harness, do not underestimate it.

disorder since 2020.